Growing
I don’t know, the past one year has been very roller coaster for me, the part when I am broken hearted in relationship two times, and then the family issues that I could not handle and get stuck out of it, fed up with current job, being lonely of living apart from my family and closed friend, and so on.
I know that this will serve something that leads me to be sufficient with my own self who is supposed to rely on herself without too attached to someone else. I know that I’ve been scared too much the idea of being alone forever. I have no power to predict the situations that will come up in the future, am I really going to be a loner constantly or will I eventually land to someone’s else life and share our ideas, dreams, or values together.
I now live apart from my bestfriend, Sarah. The past one year we completely share our life alongside the stories together. We’re not a phone chat person basically, I know that this situation might slightly impact us, we can not have a face to face chit chat anymore like we used to do before. No more impromptu meetup whenever we felt overwhelmed by something and felt the need to share it immediately to someone.
I need to handle this all by myself now. I put her a notice yesterday that maybe it is the right time for me to heal myself on my own where before there is always someone that I can call whenever I felt stuck in a situation.
God put the best timeline for me to grow. He deliver someone to me as Sarah to help me evolve from the past traumas and issues that suddenly blow up the past one year first, then He put me in a situation that I should start to handle it myself after one year of probation.
Such an epic scenario.
Quite, so!
From now on, my journey begins. The moment that I will put my best efforts to face the world, to show my own colors, to love myself, to explore a lot of things that I’ve been putting off so long, to open myself to any circumstances without putting too much pressures like before anymore.
Let’s glow up, Putri. God will guide you for sure.
